DEAR LAURA (and anyone else who needs these words): Let this be a year of saying yes to yourself, of embracing change and welcoming transition. What if, instead of holding your breath, anticipating pain and discomfort, you breathe through the hard part? What if you let the threshold truly transport you, instead of projecting a … Continue reading The Only Constant is Change
"Living is a form of not being sure, not knowing what next or how. The moment you know how, you die a little. The artist never entirely knows. We guess. We may be wrong, but we take leap after leap in the dark." —Agnes de Mille I am a planner. I haven't always been a … Continue reading “The moment you know how, you die a little.”
For the first time in either of our lives, Joel and I own a car. This happened thanks to the love and support of friends and family, and our joint decision (spurred by me and by recent life events) to invest in this quality-of-life purchase. Oh boy, our quality of life has indeed been affected … Continue reading Mobility
Armando Molina teaches our Acting III class this semester, and he constantly drops quotable phrases that I jot down in my journal whenever we get a chance. Journaling is a big part of this program -- we have had journals due for each of our three acting classes, each of our three voice classes, and … Continue reading If You Go There, We Go There
I am poor. I have been for the majority of my life. Money has always been tight; only once in my life did I make enough money to be considered "lower middle class;" and it seems like no matter how much I budget or save or take on side jobs, there is just no escaping … Continue reading How to Keep Poor Folks Poor
Today I am 500 days sober. I don’t want a drink. In the past 500 days, I have almost never wanted a drink. The emotions and energy that fueled the desire to drink in the past are still there; now, I am actively aware of them and am engaged in the process of deconstructing them. … Continue reading 500 Days Sober
Friends, it has 3 months since I started recording podcast episodes, and I am giving myself a little squeeze for sticking with it. Sometimes I wish I had a bit more time/know-how so that I can work on making sure that listening to these are as enjoyable and interesting as possible...for now, I'm just really … Continue reading Podcast Ep #13 — “A Bit of Introspection”
(TW/CW: depression, anxiety, alcoholism) In my years-long journey with depression and anxiety, there are various habits that I have developed. Some of these habits are positive ones, the ones that help me maintain and practice awareness so that I can actively combat depression. Some of these habits are symptoms of the depression itself--subtly self-destructive … Continue reading Habits.
I just spent about an hour creating a shared Google Calendar for Joel and I. He started a part-time job at Grow DTLA last week, and my grad school schedule is growing and growing...so making a space for us to see each other's schedules at a glance (including events we are attending together--like the shows … Continue reading Grad School is Busy
Finally....... Twelve years of trying. Twelve years, on and off, with alternating bursts of hope and self-doubt. Twelve years of periodic wondering what I needed to do differently in order to be seen, to be received, to be wanted. I have been accepted to an MFA program in acting. Just this week, I got the … Continue reading Finally.